The End of the Year

So many things have happened, and so many things had stayed the same. I was crazed and stressed then switched off the work light I had been doing for 6 years.
My writing and eating and this experience of blogging was a passion. A labor of love. Even with one follower and friends reading it from time to time.
I had been working a day job, retail, management for Capezio, a Dance Store. A lovely dance store. But after years of working long hours, going above and beyond. Subjecting myself to the scrutiny of superiors with far less experience than a stock boy. Yet they would come to me for advice and guidance and I would happily offer what I could. To only be bypassed for advancement and recognition too many times.
After 6 years of achieving all I know I would, I left.
This Bar girl was relying on the Bar to cover my NYC rent and NYC life.
I went to do some marketing for Webster Hall...a lovely place, but a bigger mess that Capezio. I still offer free lance work. But when I present them with a Tony Award party for one of the Hottest new Musicals on Broadway, Priscilla Queen of the Desert. They couldn't do the party, or even give me a price quote.
I now am pursuing my Marketing business. I don;t pursue it often, and my self doubt has made me lazy and complacent.
This year I found more time on sophie the sofa and watching Stevie the TV. Working at the bar as often as I could and taking on the lifestyle of that industry. Getting home 2 or 4 in the morrning. Starting my day at 2. Sleeping til noon. Although I would still wake up at 7...that internal clock I can't seem to shake unless I'm totally hungover or still drunk at 7 AM.
My daily life was hours of bad TV. I can explain all episodes of How I met your Mother. Real Housewives of almost all the cities, The Kardasians and Top Chef's. Those people became my friends and social life for a good part of 2011. I love Marshall Erickson. I would probably date Barney. And I'm wondering what to get for Lily's baby. I get a little concerned that Padma may be losing too much weight and want to slap most of the real Housewives. Well actually all of the real housewives.
I was on a slippery slope.
Other than work at the bar and shopping for food. I did very little.
My restaurant reviews were becoming non-exisitent. Mostly for lack of cash. So, my cooking skills became more challenged.
Living in Sunnyside Queens life is home. It's families. Now families live in Manhattan. I know its true because I had seen them.
Its a bit quieter here in Sunnyside. The buildings aren't as tall. And yes. It is sunny.
I cook here. I have a real kitchen and not just a 2x2 counter.

So all this cooking has made me fatter. Hard to believe since I ate pretty rich foods when I would go out all the time.

I have mastered a few dishes and never have unhappy visitors.

After this entry was started I left in the middle.
Joining it now. my life changed many more times.
Webster Hall is closing. Another life time establishment. Icon of the city. Bad management and high rents. I didn't stay but a month or so. There was no direction and I could see why they weren't doing well. I left and bartended full time and then eventually was offered a great job as GM at Grishko. I was back in dance. That was for about 2 yrs...then the Judy curse struck and as the GM's before me...I was the 3rd to get the boot because this woman thinks she is Queen. I left unemployed for a few months. Then became a Pookie Girl.
That was good for almost 3 yrs.
Now I get to sit all day in pretty little clothes. Work with pretty people in suits and polished nails.

Food is the only thing that has always stuck. So here I am again.